Exactly Where I Am Meant To Be

2781692552_f380b09e6f_z

 

I question my life sometimes.  I wonder where I am going, and where ill end up.  It feels like every time we get to “that” place in life, the place where we thought we longed to be, we feel like we need to push further, farther.  Unsatisfied?  or bored?  Why do we never feel like we have run through the finish line?

I remember when I was younger.  My goals were to get married, and have children, both of which I accomplished.  It may have taken a while longer than I had anticipated, but I made it, I am here, but I feel like I am supposed to be reaching for more, pushing myself further, setting new goals to reach, but what is it that needs to be accomplished?  What is it that I need to do to make my life satiating?

Sometimes along the way obstacles fall in your path, and you questions where you are going.  I sit here right now and wonder if this is where I am meant to be?  Did I grow up for all of those years and make it to that place that I always dreamed of?  Is this the place in life that I always wanted to be?  Did I make myself proud? Did I make my family proud? I am here, but sometimes it feel like I am missing steps, or I skipped the obvious along the way.

Life truly is a work in progress, and the sooner we realize this and just enjoy the journey, the sooner we will realize that is life and what it is truly about – enjoying the moments, and appreciating everything that they have to offer.

Advertisements

The Art Of Forgiveness | The Most Precious Gift To Yourself

gift-of-forgiveness

I am the first to admit it – I let things fester, unnecessarily, to the point where I lose sleep, and dwell on things.  I get to the point where I attach all memories to a specific event, or person and I only see negative.  It turns all of my acquired human decency in prickly little attitude which takes away my shine.  It turns my happiness into frustration.  It take’s the quality of my joy and turns it into mediocre.  It take’s the authenticity out of me.

The thing about fairness in life, is that it just doesn’t happen.  You can take a look at your past and all the events that have bothered you to all different degree’s and you will learn, from your continued life experiences, that it just doesn’t happen.

There have been situations where I have sat there, literally for day’s, month’s, or in certain circumstances, years and thought that what someone has done to me has been so unfair.  No one in their wildest imagination would see their actions towards me justified by any means. I do tend to distance myself from people who hurt me, physically… but letting go and keeping your distance, mentally, is something that takes a little more discipline.

unforgiveness

Do I believe in Karma?  Yes.  Did any of these individuals ever get what I felt they justly deserved to come back to them for treating me a certain way?  No.

Being imprisoned by these hurtful actions does not do anything except lock you into an emotional prison where you are left trapped, and unable to move forward in your own journey.

Don’t lose your joy.  Don’t function as a mediocre being when you try so hard to shine each and every day.

All the years you have waited for them to “make it up to you” and all the energy you expended trying to make them change (or make them pay) kept the old wounds from healing and gave pain from the past free rein to shape and even damage your life. And still they may not have changed. Nothing you have done has made them change. Indeed, they may never change. Inner peace is found by changing yourself, not the people who hurt you. And you change yourself for yourself, for the joy, serenity, peace of mind, understanding, compassion, laughter, and bright future that you get.”

Lewis B. Smedes 

The Art of Forgiving: When You Need To Forgive And Don’t Know How

An Open Letter To My Husband…

You are my best friend.  

You uphold the value of those two little words to the depth of standard that I needed it them to be held to.  You’ve put significance back into two word that caused me a lot of confusion, heartache,  frustration and tears.
 
You never manipulate, or make decisions based on personal gains.  You reassure me that I am enough just by being myself.  I know I am no walk in the park …  but you consistently show respect especially during those moments when I know I could be a better human being. You have integrity, and constructively remind me how to continue to be that better person that I strive to be each day.  Your guidance is genuine.  You never throw my faults in my face. Your arms are always extended to help pick me up so I can stand with pride, dignity, grace, and respect.

You never talk behind my back.  You allow me complete freedom of my thoughts and feelings and provide me with the safest place where I can rightfully share my opinions by getting words out of my heart and off of my mind.  You help me make sense of those situations that break me, and never do so with judgment, ever. You mend the broken me, the vulnerable me, with words of encouragement and help me put my world back into perspective, humbly. You give me a sense of security in a world that is nothing but unsure.

You are uncomplicated, and unconditional. Even on your worst day, you have my best intentions at heart, and appreciate and show gratitude for even the smallest things I do for you.  You will never know just how much that means to me.  Your intentions are without a doubt selfless, and come from only the most loving parts of your heart.

You care enough about me to let me be me – the good, and the bad, and I am forever thankful that you’ve showed me the true meaning of what a best friend should be  – the way it was always meant to be, the way it should have always been.  

You are my best friend.

XO
K